The Calm You Already Are
Early in my meditation practice, I tried to meditate my way to inner peace. Sitting there, watching my breath, thinking: "When will this finally work? When will I feel okay?"
Then one morning, between thoughts, I noticed something: the awareness watching my frustration was already calm. It was there the whole time, underneath my efforts to find it.
That simple recognition changed everything because I recognized what was here before the difficulty began.
What I've Learned About How Change Actually Happens
After 30+ years of personal practice and over a decade of coaching, here's what I see again and again:
The pattern that feels like "you" isn't fixed.
That anxious thought-loop or inner critic? It arises in awareness. It isn't awareness itself. When you recognize the difference, your relationship to everything changes.
Everyone's way of being works differently.
Some drop into stillness and lose presence in conflict. Others stay grounded in motion and struggle to sit still. Both are valid. They're different architectures needing different approaches.
Recognition works faster than repetition alone.
You don't need 10,000 hours of sitting. You need to recognize what's already here, then learn to return to it throughout your day. That's a skill we can build together.
Your Next Step: Begin Your InnerMap
The InnerMap shows how your inner world works. It reveals how your attention moves, how your body responds, and how calm naturally arises in you.
In minutes, you’ll start to see patterns you lived inside for years. You'll understand why some practices feel effortless while others feel like pushing uphill.
Here's what happens:
1. Part One: Initial Reflection (10-15 minutes)
You'll answer questions about your meditation background, how your attention and body naturally respond, what obstacles you face, and what you're looking for right now. Some questions are straightforward. Others reveal patterns in how you process experience: where your attention goes, how you meet difficulty, how you learn best. This helps me understand not just your meditation history, but how your nervous system actually works and what approach will fit your life. Once shared, I’ll personally connect by email or text within 1-2 days so we can schedule your free consultation.
2. Part Two: 5D Assessment (10-15 minutes)
When scheduling, you’ll complete a brief psychometric assessment that adds quantitative precision to your InnerMap, measuring factors like awareness, nonjudgment, observation patterns and how your attention naturally moves.
3. InnerMap Analysis (1-2 days)
I’ll personally analyze both sets of responses to identify your unique meditative architecture, cross-referencing the patterns I've charted over 3,100+ InnerMaps to ensure precision.
4. Free Zoom Consultation (30-45 minutes)
We'll explore your InnerMap together. You’ll see exactly why certain methods resonated (or didn’t) and discover what aligns with how your nervous system naturally works.
You'll walk away with:
✦ Clear understanding of your meditative architecture
✦ Practical next steps tailored to your inner world
✦ Recognition of capacities you already have
✦ No obligation to work together
Most people report feeling less reactive and more spacious within the first month because they've learned to recognize and return to what was already here.
What You're Looking for Is Already Looking
The awareness you want to cultivate is reading these words right now. It was there this morning when you woke up. It's here when stress arises, and it's here when stress fades.
The Innerscapes method reveals what's been present all along, then shows you how to live from that recognition instead of from the stories about who you should be.
Recognition is available to you. Let's discover an approach that fits your life.
